Notebook 12 Pg 44

Notes

• Do something for something
• Western Wall - 40 year Greeks, Genhennah, SHE-OH
• "I was not I was I am Not . I don't Care" (no Longer)
• Fight fire with fire must be prepared to put out the flames with your tears
• KBO Keep Buggering on
• WS JC JC  12-04-04   
• Alpha Male, Self-Confidence, Destiny

Commentary

Do something for something

Sage advice. Not sure who it is aimed at.

Western Wall - 40 year Greeks, Genhennah, SHE-OH

Okay I have worked out that Genhennah is, in Judaism the final abode of the unrighteous dead (http://www.koshergospel.com/sheol.html)

"I was not I was I am Not . I don't Care" (no Longer)

No idea. It sound like I've combined the God of the Old Testament with a sulky teenager.

Fight fire with fire must be prepared to put out the flames with your tears

A great quote and one I am alas unable to find the origin of  

KBO! Keep Buggering on

The famous words of Winston Churchill

WS JC JC  12-04-04   

Hmm well all I can make out is that something that included people with the initial WS JC JC happened on the twelfth of April 2004. Eat your heart out John Langdon

Alpha Male, Self-Confidence, Destiny

Strong words rendered meaningless due to lack of any kind of context whatsoever. Not like me is it?

I found a letter home from my inglorious two years in New York

Slices of the Big Apple

Occasional musings from a man rapidly becoming as bipolar as the city in which he lives.

So every day the weather is like this - between 6.00am and 10.00am - between 75-85 degrees. 10.00am - 8.00pm - between 85-100 degrees. 10.00pm - 6.00am - between 75-85 degrees. All topped off with no breeze whatsoever and 80-100% Humidity. EVERY single day! - I am basically reduced to being a bucket of jellied zombie sweat.

Every day 15 million people crowd onto Manhattan an island only slightly bigger than Bear Island. Fifteen million self- opinionated, perpetually petulant, oh-so-busy, short tempered and boiling hot people from every country culture and religion on Earth all pushing shoving, snarling, snapping, and griping all at once.

I honestly witnessed the following exchange last week , just between two perfectly ordinary strangers on the corner of 50th and Lexington (me now speaky de lingo). Excuse language)

Hey bud, excuse me.
What?
Got the time
What?
I said have you got the time?
NO
Okay no need to be rude m*****r-f******r!
What? Go f***ck yourself!
What? F**ck you! Rude mother f****r
No you f**k yourself, mother f*****r
A***hole!
You’re the A***hole!

Both men then departed having achieved absolutely nothing except steaming blood pressures.

As you may be aware I am currently living in an attic in Weehawken New Jersey - a place dominated by gaudy Soprano esque houses and lots of Cuban exiles - I feel I could randomly throw a rock and I’d invariably hit someone linked to the Kennedy assassination.

Living in Weehawken means I have to bus it into manhattan - there are two routes - both involving going through the twenty six lane Lincoln Tunnel. I can take New Jersey transit - big coaches, air conditioned everybody in buzz cuts, white shirts sitting upright and looking like we are all off to a Michael Douglas in ‘Falling Down’ convention or I can take the slightly cheaper Johnny Cabs - Needless to say Johnny has obviously long since sold out to Pedro and Miguel and these ‘cabs’ are in fact 30 seater mini buses obviously on loan between Monday and Friday before they go back for the weekend as fodder for the demolition derby.

Johnny cabs have replaced simple things like airbags and for that well known safety feature the faded cut out picture of Pope John Paul II taped to the dashboard. I’m all for bigging up the late Pontiff but I have to debate his real use in a head on collision in a 26 lane pile up - not that that is likely as NJ is the most densely populated state in the US and every day something like six million people commute into New York and as far as I can tell all of them have arranged to meet at the entrance to the Lincoln Tunnel at 7.45 every morning.

I have started to get some job interviews - I paid a company to have my resume Americanized - so now it is full of phrases like ‘spear headed’ and ‘leveraging’ which seems to be having some effect. Mean whilst I am still at the five star Waldorf inputting data like a Cyberman with a business studies degree - I have gone for the coordinator job as I have realized that moany people are moany people everywhere , regardless of whether they are drinking cider outside Camden Tube or drinking Crystal Champagne in the Starlight room - whining knows no barriers - as my writing proves.

I am still going to ‘Crunch’ the gym with ‘no judgments’ - this is complete nonsense as I have never f elt so much like I am attending ‘gay church’ - I am almost tempted to keep my beer belly as it definitely marks me out as being hetro - no self respecting gay man would ever dream of having one


Aside from all this I still don’t know if I fit in here - I am ‘in a strange place’ (another ‘me now speaky the lingo’) where I am observing lots and getting a lot of scribbling done. Its an adventure and as Kev pointed out it all comes down to ‘time over pressure’ - which is a quote from Shawshank Redemption - so cheers for the nightmare prison reference!

Ok I shall now desist. Just want you all to know that ‘I love you and mean it’ one of the few phrases I have heard and taken to my heart!

Hope things are well with you all - please send me any stuff at all as at the moment I am reduced to buying old Dr Who DVD’s to remind me of why I love home.

Fondest regards

Vincent

If you want to know where the 'eck I've been lately...

I've been getting married!

The weirdest of weird coincidences, maybe.

And and even better one

Notebook 16 Pg 125

notes

• Dipping sauce, he needs instruction
• Joe Di Magio didn't know wallets existed. Had special pants made with no pockets
• The reason people were shocked players buying drugs, not the drugs but the thought of players actually paying for something
• No right fielder in Abbot and Costello's who's on first, no idea what one world of that sentence means.
• Didn't loose, they didn't finish

commentary


Dipping sauce, he needs instruction
Just a good line for indication a certain cast of mind that displays levels of non-intellectual curiosity

Joe Di Magio didn't know wallets existed. Had special pants made with no pockets
I think there is a common thread in the US that baseball players have a reputation of being somewhat parsimonious 

The reason people were shocked at the revelation of players buying drugs, was not the drugs but the thought of players actually paying for something
As above.


No right fielder in Abbot and Costello's who's on first, no idea what one world of that sentence means.
I think this must alludes to this routine which is a national institution in the US.

 

Guess they knew they were on to a good thing



Yep, sure did.




Oh Boy!



...moving on

Didn't loose they didn't finish
Not sure why I wrote this, guess it is another baseball reference. What makes you think I was living in America when I wrote this page?

Notebook 46 Pg 15

notes

• Debussy Jardin sous le puie
• Norfolk Coast and Danny Baker are fast becoming what Spanish Wheatfields were to Maximus Decimus
• 2 min grass
• Quite a big secret:'Knowing that non-magicians will overlook the things that don't seem so thrilling, and thus magicians can fool them with those things'.   Nathaniel Schiffman
• 'The non Magician will never learn how the tricks are really done because when they see the real secrets that are used they aren't impressed by them. They think they're not finding out anything of importance, and so they believ the secrets are too well guarded to be discovered. Not true.'  Nathaniel Schiffman

commentary

Debussy Jardin sous le pluie
Oh my. Do you remember how I played this to you on that warm afternoon in the Spring of 1907? You recall how we found that dusty old Steinway hidden behind the portraits of Grand mama and her water spaniels, how we laughed and laughed. You do remember don't you? Surely you do? We spent weeks exploring the attics in Uncle Tom's house. Oh happy days.

Norfolk Coast and Danny Baker are fast becoming what Spanish Wheat fields were to Maximus Decimus
I wrote this when I was wifeless, jobless and very nearly homeless in NYC and the thought of listening to Danny's show and visiting the North Norfolk coast were things that kept me going in the dark hours. Maximus Decimus is the part Russell Crowe plays in the eponymous Gladiator

2 min grass
I can't believe that having invented this godsend to the horticultural world I have now forgotten how I did it.

Quite a big secret: Knowing that non-magicians will overlook the things that don't seem so thrilling, and thus magicians can fool them with those things. Nathaniel Schffman

The non Magician will never learn how the tricks are really done because when they see the real secrets that are used they aren't impressed by them. They think they're not finding out anything of importance, and so they believ the secrets are too well guarded to be discovered. Not true.
Nathaniel Schiffman
Both these quotes are from an excellent book called Abracadabra which is a really cracking read.

Notebook 50 Pg 109

notes

• I've never quite understood the attraction of a funeral pyre; honouring someones greatness by putting them on a never to be eaten barbecue
• 'That's going to ruffle some feathers' he said as if he'd just spotted Chicken Licken deep in conversation with Colonel Saunders.
• As good ideas went it was on par with Geordie Le Forge fetching the Worzels to come and fix the tractor beam.
• He looked panicky, like a Cretan being introduced to a polygraph.
• He looked as happy as a Minotaur receiving a sat-nav for Xmas.
• Un-sportsmanlike and unfair, like suggesting going first in a game of Rock, Paper, Scissor, Tank.
• Formula 1 = Chariots of Dire

  commentary

I've never quite understood the attraction of a funeral pyre; honouring someones greatness by putting them on a never to be eaten barbecue
Not my most subtle of observations I'm afraid.

That's going to ruffle some feathers he said, as if he had just spotted Chicken Licken deep in conversation with Colonel Saunders.
I'm not sure how patronising I am being by giving you these links: Chicken Licken and
Colonel Saunders  Gosh, that's certainly a more upbeat, sprightly version of him they choose to use on the sides of their buckets)

As good ideas went it was on par with Geordi Le Forge fetching the Worzels to come and fix the tractor beam
As good ideas went it was on par with Geordi Le Forge fetching the Worzels to come and fix the tractor beam . I'm thinking a metaphor is probably no good when you have to employ three hyperlinks in one sentence to make it understandable to anyone other than yourself.

 He looked panicky, like a Cretan being introduced to a Polygraph 
 He looked panicky like a Cretan being introduced to a Polygraph. Make that two hyperlinks.

He looked as happy as a Minotaur receiving a sat-nav for Xmas
I am going to let this one stand unexplained as I'm sure there is only so much patronising your pretty little head can endure in one go.

Un-sportsmanlike and unfair, like suggesting going first in a game of Rock, Paper, Scissor, Tank.
No comment

Formula 1 = Chariots of Dire
Harsh but fair.

Notebook 48 Pg 91

Notes

• Ounce and inch come from uncia
• Kanaka
• Round city with four axis
• Golden Palace
• Paper
• Bait al-Hikma
• House of Wisdom
• Al-Khwarizmi
• Contracts dates of delivery
• Inventories + accounting records
• Dies mensis

commentary

Ounce and inch come from uncia
Well, what can I say? I like knowing stuff like this

Kanaka
Is of course a name for a native of Hawaii, quite why that is here I do not know. I think have phonetically misspelt something.

Round city with four axis 
No idea, there is a four axis car audio and entertainment company in Redditch but that's a bit random even for me as Crown Prince of Randomania

Golden Palace
This could be anything from a ancient citadel to a Chinese take-away.

Paper
What a useful bit of note taking.

Bait al-Hikma: House of Wisdom
Oh yeah! That's more like it. Useful note taking. I want to go here

Al-Khwarizmi
Main contender for smartest cookie in/on the box/planet at the time. Without him there would quite literally not be nothing.

Contracts dates of delivery, Inventories + accounting records
All these very very useful though not particularly glamorous things exist because of him

Dies mensis
Alas all I can find is some kind of Latin reference to death by menstrual cycle, which can't be right can it?

Notebook 48 Pg 56

notes

• First Stonecaster Corporation
• Jesus said you shall not marry after divorce, so Mandela is a sinner
• 'It doesn't say what it says it says
• 'Saying scripture is wrong means you don't understand what its says
• Church founded on the desires of a murderer and unelected monarch to have open sexual reltions
• I have yet to have one single oppressed person come to me and say 'Archbishop Tutu youa re getting too inolved in politics' this is said only by those with the comfort of middle class
• Jesus was a radical
• 'This earth is not heaen and was never meant to be - Ann Widdercombe
• 'That's just an excuse not to tackle things' - Archbishop Tutu in response to above

commentary

First Stonecaster Corporation
I think this may one day pop up in a potentially not very subtle, moralizing, metaphor heavy short story I will write

Jesus said you shall not marry after divorce So Mandella is a sinner
Self-explanatory and highlights the contradiction inherent in many of the worlds scriptures

'It doesn't say what it says it says'
I think this is a genuine reply from one of the theologians being interviewed on the BBC R4 documentary I was listening to. I keep re-reading it in the hope it will make some sense. It fails to do so.

'Saying scripture is wrong means you don't understand what its says'
As above, I struggle very hard to make sense of what this actually means as surely this and the above is just shorthand for 'scripture means whatever I decide it means' which is downright scary.

Church founded on the desire of a murderous unelected monarch to have open sexual relations
I'm guessing the Church of England would probably not see it like this.

"I have yet to have one single oppressed person come to me and say 'Archbishop Tutu you are getting too involved in politics!' this is said only by those with the comfort of middle class' - Archbishop Desmond Tutu
Regardless of your thoughts and feelings towards his beliefs I think you have to put the man up there as a world class exemplary Human being.

Jesus was a radical
Desmond Tutu defending his stance

'This earth is not heaven and was never meant to be' Ann Widdercombe
Oh Ann Ann Ann what can I say..?

'That's just an excuse not to tackle things'  Archbishop Tutu in response to the above
No worries Ann I think Desmond has said it all for me.

Notebook 48 pg 191

notes

• Misericordia
• Sapentia
• Winsome More Free

commentary

Misericordia
I know this is can be two thing either a 'chill out' room for monks in a monastary or a small dagger that was used to 'mercy kill' a wounded foe.  I may have been thinking of using it as a character name in yet another piece of work that went unwritten.

Sapentia
This means characterised by wisdom so I guess as above. Though I may have been trying out potential babies names.

Winsome More Free
I could not figure this out until I did. It is me; I am Vincent Murphy so this was a pun. On myself. Clever, and so very very sad at the same time.

Notebook 48 Pg 190

Notes

• Tessellations - square four
• Omadhaun - Fool
• Eirenicon - peace
• Dodeka
• Verbicide - destroyer of words
• Ventripotent - large bellied
• Ferociously Veracious and veraciously ferocious 
• Advertising = vermiculation of language through incessant verbicide
• Vade Mecum = Go with me

commentary

Tessellations - square four
Isn't tessellation some kind of mosaic patchwork thingy?  I know I am all for a new hobby but I think this one was a nine minute wonder

 Omadhaun - Fool
An Irish alternative word for a big eejit

Eirenicon - peace
Eirenicon is a proposition that attempts to resolve two conflicting viewpoints. I like this a lot

Dodeka
As in having twelve - like a Dodecahedron, I am guessing this is all about Humanichs

Verbicide = destroyer of words
I like this word a lot

Ventripotent = large bellied
Alas this is to my infinite regret something I have found myself becoming since quitting smoking

Ferociously veracious and veraciously ferocious 
Veracious means to habitually tell the truth, so to be a bit veracious I am a little bit chuffed with my own phraseology here.

Advertising = vermiculation of language through incessant verbicide
Okay 'vermiculation means worm eaten and I would love to think but alas doubt that I invented this phrase.

Vade Mecum = Go with me
A useful bit of Latin  used to describe a handbook. I may have been referring to a book on Humanichs which most people will eventually carry around with them everywhere - in my world, obviously.

Looking at the above I think I may have been stuck in a room with a dictionary with all the letters torn out except for V

Notebook 48 Pg 173

notes

• 'Wonderfully divisive' Head of Entertainment C4
• 'Great to have something that polarises people so much' Head of Entertainment C4
• 'You know I live in hope that one day we can have a conversation that actually makes sense' Dr Watson to Sherlock Holmes
• Pigbristles
• 'Most people who'd rather die than think do so. Bertrand Russell
• Airheaded impressionables

commentary

'Wonderfully divisive' - Head of Entertainment C4
Alas he was saying this with no sense of irony.

'Great to have something that polarises people so much'  - Head of Entertainment C4
As above, and you can see his point; the world is after all in such desperate, desperate need of more polarisation.


'You know I live in hope that one day we can have a conversation that actually makes sense'
Dr Watson to Sherlock Holmes
I think I had almost forgotten how laced through with dry humour the whole of the Holmes cannon is.

Pig bristles
No idea, though probably best not to come round to my place for dinner if I offer to cook you my pork surprise.

'Most people who'd rather die than think, do so'. Bertrand Russell
I know I have probably written this quote out at least a dozen times in dozens of books and think I will continue to do so until I die.

Airheaded impressionables 
Just a nice phrase that ecapsulate those who allow others to do their thinking for them.

Notebook 48 Pg 139

Notes

• Who put the overalls in Mrs Murphy's chowder Captain English
• 40 arrows into the audience
• I'm playing Henry V and it's a pity I didn't perish at Agincourt
• Aburning
• Success: The bitch goddess whose smile hides a taste for blood - Hedda Hopper

Comments

"Who put the overalls in Mrs Murphy's chowder? Captain English
Right well where do I begin? My Mum is Mrs Murphy and her maiden name was Josephine English, but these facts only really serve to muddy the waters as to why I would possibly write about chowder and overalls. And then I found this...

WHO THREW THE OVERALLS IN MRS. MURPHY'S CHOWDER?

Mrs. Murphy gave a party just about a week a-go,
Everything was plentiful the Murphy's they're not slow,
They treated us like gentlemen we tried to act the same,
And only for what happened well it was an awful shame.

Chorus
Who threw the overalls in Mrs. Murphy's chowder?
Nobody spoke so we shouted all the louder,
It's an Irish trick that's true,
But we'll lick the "mick" that threw
The overalls in Mrs. Murphy's chowder.

When she dished the chowder out she fainted on the spot.
She found a pair of overalls at the bottom of the pot.
Tim Nolan, he got rippin' mad. His eyes were bulging out.
He stood upon the piano and loudly he did shout.

...it goes on in similar shades of Shamrock for another couple of verses. I am just glad that I'm not going as completely mad as I thought. I'm guessing this was somehow related to my reading about Orson Welles' trip around Ireland in a donkey and cart on his own when he was just 15.

40 arrows into the audience
What happened during Orson's first production of Henry V in New York where his taste for the truly theatrical led to the entire audience coming under fire.

I'm playing Henry V and it's a pity I didn't perish at Agincourt
A great line from the lead actor in the above performance which pretty much sums up the stresses and strains of working with Welles. Also of note is the fact that that actor was Burgess Meredith  known mostly today not for his Shakesperian eloquence but for being Rocky's Trainer and The Penguin in the 60's TV version of Batman. 

Aburning
I think this was just a word I thought worth remembering, possibly for use in some wet, musty doggerel dogged poetry I was devising.

Success: The bitch goddess whose smile hides a taste for blood - Hedda Hopper
Oh now this is a very good line. So much so that I am tempted to give it the so very now credence of reducing it to a tweet.

Notebook 48 Pg 05

16:04 Notes from the worlds smallest, oldest, stuffiest bar and I'm in it which probably says far more about me than this place, which you'd have to remake out of tweed and pomp to get any more stuffy.

16:08 A sonorous silence- like a broken church bell, a pub where the tick of the clock is louder then the slurp of the beer.

16:09 Amazing, this must be where coffins go to die.

16:10 I feel lost without my powdered wig. Perhaps Mrs Miggins will drop by with some pies.

16:11 I have decided to forge a coalition with Charles Fox and trample those accurs'd Whigs once and for all.

16:12 Charles Dickens spills a pint of porter over Mrs Pintspill, we decide to wait 50 years for the invention of post-modern irony before we laugh.

16:13 Press charges against urchin who stole my silk 'kerchief'. He is to be hung at Tyburn on the morrow.

16:14 Pray for gout.

16:16 Decide to keep this diary - like Pepys who left the pub 5 minutes ago.

16:17 Remind self to learn difference between tipping the barmaid and tupping the barmaid, could be important.

16:18 Learn that the barman is Polish - he probably fought for King Leopald the Badly Named at the battle of Litsterineguard and received a ha'penny pension for each of his lost limbs.

16:19 Broke second best quill.

16:20 Leave, am praying not to meet footpad on way back to my farm in Islington fields.

Notebook 48 Pg 49

Proof I can not draw for toffee

notes

• Average length scroll = twenty/ thirty feet eight nine inches wide
• Pigeon holes
• Label = titulus
• Papyrus bubulos biblos bible
• Paper, parchment, pergamena, potsherd
  
• Ostrakon = ostracised
• Omni tulit punctum qui miscuit utile dulci = He carries all the point who blends utility and beuty - Horace

commentary

Average length scroll = twenty/ thirty feet, eight nine inches wide
I just like the fact that we don't see these long cumbersome rolls when they have them on TV or films what they want to read is always contained in the first six inches and not right down the unrolled bit

Pigeon holes
Were invented to hold scrolls

Label = titulus
Scrolls had labels attached which is where we get the word 'Title' for documents

Papyrus bubulos biblos bible
Evolution of the word bible

Paper parchment pegamena potsherd
Backwards evolution of the word paper

Ostrakon = ostracised
 Ostrakon = a bit of pottery with writing on and were used to have ballots  and thus were a way of voting some one to be banished hence ostracised

Omni tulit punctum qui miscuit utile dulci = He carries all the point who blends utility and beuty - Horace
I am glad I have found this and I may well be using it very soon

Notebook 49 Pg 39

notes

• Universal bookmakers
• 'We are the only things in the known Universe that can predict (dictate)
• What have you got a chiwowa (sic) in your pants about / for?
• Needle in a smack house
• Angels casting off the physical
• When we dream we go back to University
• Paradise Lost Found Regained

comments

Universal bookmakers
Considering the inside of even the most local bookmaker remains a complete and utter mystery to me I can't quite figure out why I would be calling for a Universal one. I think this my have been a (weak) riff on International Peacekeepers / Book keepers / Bee keepers etc.

'We are the only things in the known Universe that can predict (dictate)
I have a suspicion that I thought up the 'we are the only things in the known Universe' bit first and then tried to find stuff  like predict/dictate to fit at the end of the sentence, which is not really how you do aphorisms that will ever be quoted by anyone other than yourself

What have you got a chiwowa (sic) in your pants about / for
Okay so that was a piss poor attempt at spelling Chihuahua, but even so would you want one of these in your pants? Thought not. For once my creativeness stands correct.

Needle in a smack house
Like looking for a needle in a smack housee -I quite like this in a gritty urban, a bit smarty-arsey way.

Angels casting off the physical
I'm very glad I have managed to get over that  poor attention span thing where I couldn't even get  to  the end of a sen

When we dream we go back to University
I never even went to University so what happens when I dream?  Actually I think I know what I am going on about here as it probably relates to my one and only profoundly life changing dream. Alas that will have to wait for another time, but I do come back and link to it here I promise.

Paradise, Lost, Found Regained
Maybe I decided to rewrite the works of Milton the great poet with his amazing lyrical contemplation upon the whole spectrum of belief, life, death, sin, love, redemption and beauty into txtspk:

Of Man's first disobedience, and the fruit
Of that forbidden tree whose mortal taste
Brought death into the World, and all our woe,
With loss of Eden, till one greater Man

O' Mns 1st dsobdnce + d'frut
o dat 4bidn tre whos mrtl tste
br0 def in2 d wrld + all r wo
Wiv los o' Edn 'til 1 gr8tr Mn

Right now I am vacillating between genuine enjoyment and considering going to commit seppuku

Notebook 49 Pg 23

notes

• Animals Broti - little brothers, siblings
• AI to Actuality
• Our image of something
• Hybrid of images, impressions, thoughts is to us the reality, Image of Soho at night
• Weren't ready until discovered, Quantum Knowledge
• (Prob)
• Eyeball - spectrum
• Infinite knowledge means

commentary


Animals - little brothers, siblings
Of course obviously here I am referring to... who am I kidding? I have no idea and would love to know what a 'Broti' was or is, if only so I can warn my little brother and siblings.

AI to Actuality
AI stands for Artificial Intelligence which, as someone much wiser than me pointed out, we should be banned from talking about until as a species we start to show some signs of actual intelligence. Hang on! That's probably what I was trying to say here. Result!

Our image of something
After the success of above a fairly jarring return to vapidity as 'our image of something' has to be a contender for Harvey Smith to flick V signs upon in the next vague of the year show

Hybrid of images, impressions, thoughts is to us the reality, Image of Soho at night
Honestly beyond bland truisms I may as well have just typed  Pugh Pugh... for all the sense this makes.

Weren't ready until discovered, Quantum Knowledge
Again, I can write this stuff until the cows come home but as for what in actuality it means I don't know

(Prob)
?

Eyeball - spectrum
??

Infinite knowledge means
What a flummoxinlg failtastic way to end a flipping sentence.

Notebook 49 Pg 51

notes

• Baby Drops
• Slightly wounded Penguins
• The Good News is broken
• Parachute in, Airlift Out, Bungee
• Go in drop off money, go out again
• Career for Diane's
• Chain - lowest demon
• I'm his social worker
• Why are people never late for their quests or why no simple quests?

commentary
Baby Drops
Some kind of sweet/ candy perhaps?  Not sweets/ candy made from babies surely? Way too dark. 

Slightly wounded Penguin
If (and its a multi storey if) the above entry is related to confectionery then maybe I was referring to a broken one of these. 

The good news is broken
Okay, well I remember this as it is a phrase uttered by the Frenchiest woman I have ever worked with it was her unique and still somehow very elegant way of saying she had some bad news

Parachute in, airlift out, bungee
Known in the SAS as the Hokey Cokey Manoeuvre 

Go in, drop off money, go out again
I'm getting worried that in the past I may have been involved in some kind of international biscuit heist and have been brain washed to forget all about it

Career for Dianes
Perhaps I was trying to figure out what Dianes my glamorous (French?) accomplice would do after the heist.

Chain - lowest demon
The heist hypothesis comes undone here  unless we were daringly planning to do over the Devil's gaff.

I'm his social worker
This seems strangely non-sequiterish even for me - Unless I was attempting to smuggle my other (younger, don't really care if he's French or not) accomplice out of Hell after he failed to carry out my expressly written orders to chain the lowest demons 

Why are people never late for their quest? 
Ignores the small but vital fact that they very often are late as it all adds to the dramatic tension, not too late but often just in the nick of time late.

Notebook 49 Pg 41

Ink. black = serious, red = angry, blue = informal, green = mad, pink = mugged a school girl

Notes

• Drug, alcohol, meditation free up thoughts
• Riong Right / wrong
• Politics / History: Blendment as opposed to movement. Movement implies change
• Blendment implies incorporated fusion
• Turning Opposites to Proposites

           Black            White

            opposites

             <--- --->

                ---> <---

              proposite

comments

Drug, alcohol, meditation free up thoughts
This can be true, more so when one is younger and thus more (fool) hardy in these things. This page also proves that a mind of freed up thought is not always a good thing at all. One man's free thought being anothers waffley boring poison.

Riong Right / wrong
Here we go again with my minds seeming determination to treat language like my very own lexicographic Play-Do'h.

Politics / History: Blendment as opposed to movement. Movement implies change
I think I can be a bit of a cheasel (a charming weasel) when it comes to my presticogineologisticism (a made up word to describe someone with a tendency to make up words) as this on the surface could just appear to make sense but starts to collapse under any kind of scrutiny.

Blendment implies incorporated fusion
Now I just sound like something from a glossy brochure you would read whilst waiting in the foyer of a large serious place.

Turning Opposites to Proposites

Great.  If only I had some kind of diagram to explain what the heck a proposite was supposed to be.

 

           Black            White

            opposites

             <--- --->

                ---> <---

              proposite

I was wrong, this does not help at all

Notebook 49 Pg 52

notes

• Mass intimacy
• Sane Nation Experience
• Biosymbosis
• Quantology
• Emotional incontinence
• Simplexity
• Truety/ Beuth
• Bit unfurnished
• Relightenment
• Practopia

commentary

Mass intimacy
Okay, something I do know is that this is a very early notebook, proven by my determination to paradox myself into a round corner. I don't know quite what I was aiming for with mass intimacy other than a show of smart-arsedness. 

Sane Nation Experience
No idea, maybe they are playing Glastonbury this year.

Biosymbiosis
Sounds like it could be a scientific term for shagging.

Quantology
No idea - though I wrote this in the mid 90's prior to the large scale adoption of the Internet so I was
intrigued when a bit of web surfing turned up this. A site which anyone familiar with my staunch commitment to Occam's Razor will know I wouldn't go near with a ten foot magical barge pole made of Unicorns

Emotional incontinence
I would now reserve using this for those who express seemingly ersatz emotions to events or individuals they can not possible have anything other than basic human empathy for. This git is a prime example.

Simplexity
This is a far better explanation of simplexity than I can ever come up with.

Truety / beuth
Here is me trying (and failing with gusto) to solve in one just word the  Truth / Beauty conundrum that has preoccupied Humanity's finest minds for over three thousand years.

"Beauty is truth, truth beauty," – that is all

Ye know on earth, and all ye need to know." John Keats -Final lines of Ode to a Grecian Urn

Bit unfurnished
Maybe I was referring about my own mind.

Relightenment
This is an ever so post modern riff on the enlightenment and could be another name for what the era preceding Humanichs may be called.
 
Practopia
Practical Utopia - an attempt to get round the Bertrand Russell observation that 'many is the man who would build a Utopia that they them self could not live within. This was another spur for what eventually has become Humanichs

Notebook 39 Pg 79

notes

• Velcro morality
• Warning - house never unoccupied, large owner within
• Breath of Prince's
• The Great Elder
• I'm having it monogrammed
• Seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing
• Santa Claus - Kids hold the spirit of Xmas in their hearts
• Yakkety Yak
• Kill to make a point

notes

Velcro morality
 I'm guessing this is a comment on moral guidelines that appear more convenient then deeply thought out. Perhaps an observation on how morals can easily be stuck to what ever and where ever we need them to be. All in all I think it is a rich, sugar coated, easily digested metaphor that quickly goes soggy when dipped in a hot cup of analysis.

Warning! House never unoccupied, large owner within
Either I saw this sign or thought this sign would be good to see. 

Breath of Prince's
No idea why I wrote this. Could be the name of some kind of flower? Or some type of majestic experience . Alas when I think upon it now I can only think of this, the breath of which I'm sure would not be a particularly majestic experience.

The Great Elder
Nope, again no idea what this relates to. I guess I was scroodling a lot on this page.

I'm having it monogrammed
I'm guessing this is a line from Frasier and was no doubt used in relation to something that usually remains distinctly un-monagrammed - as it is 7:30am I can only think of 'ransom notes' as an example.

Seeing isn't believing, believing is seeing
Uncle Bob kept stressing upon us that belief is the death of intelligence. Belief is based on faith and faith means taking things as true without any supporting evidence, thus when you believe you stop thinking - stopping thinking means the brain ceases to process new signals and information. In medicine a brain that no longer takes in new signals is diagnosed as dead.
At least this is what I think I meant. Maybe I was just typing nonsense

Santa Claus - Kids hold the spirit of Xmas in their hearts
This may sounds uber extra schmaltzy but it made a lot of sense and goes some way to explaining the USA's mega fondness for the Holiday Season.

Yakkety Yak
I do do this, sorry.

Kill to make a point
Don't do this, please.

Notebook 48 Pg 21

notes

• Gently dementing
• Petrol and food goes up, shirts and TV 's go down - 
• Africa per capita fallen by 10%
• 2 billion mired in poverty - Robert Wade LSE
• 60% of worlds growth went to top 10%
• "you should have thought of that before your were born poor"
• Humanich theory; aims towards an incorruptable structure immune from the individual will to abuse power and self regulating against tyranny
• Self limit our own power outlet

comment

Gently dementing
A phrase that would be nice were it be a fair description of the process of senility but is not applicable in all but a very few cases.

Petrol and food goes up, shirts and TV 's go down
I think I can infer form the subject matter that I was reading/ watching/ listening (I think I am going to replace all these words with 'absorbing' to save time) a report on  global economics and the reporter was highlighting the ridiculousness of the unfettered free market system where everyday essentials continued to rise in price whilst the cost of non essential items and luxury goods plummeted.

Africa per capita fallen by 10%
As above


2 billion mired in poverty - Robert Wade LSE
Ah here you go it, was this guy Robert Wade formerly of the IMF and a Development Scholar I sincerely think he know of which he speaks. 

60% of worlds growth went to top richest 10%
As above. That is a shocking statistic not matter what way you look at it.

"you should have thought of that before your were born poor"
I believe it was him who used this brilliant phrase to sum up the attitude of many who would prefer to see it as Africa's own fault.

Humanich theory; aims towards an uncorruptable structure immune from the individual will to abuse power and self regulating against tyranny
My response to above as a potential remedy.

Self-limit our own power outlet
Probably what every one of us would probably need to do as individuals, curb our own desires to have make and be more an channel it into the group.

Notebook 05 Pg 70

notes

• 08 Summer of Hate
• Midnight in the Hoegarrden of good and evil
• Village Camden where even the dregs pass you by
• Kathy Burkian woman laughing heartily at the man chav blokes story and his wild gesticulating with cries of 'so I fucked the geezer over like!'
• Story of a group of human beings who with no prior knowledge or experience came(led) together
• Club eventually
• "...I don't know what to ask you and you don't know what to say." Marcus

notes

08 Summer of Hate
A reference  to a job I was working on which I can guarantee was without a soupcon of a slither of an iota of a doubt the singular most balls-upped, clown operated, totally bollixed catastrophe in Western European history and believe me I have seen (and caused) a few in my time. One day when the little pot of seething in my mind stops bubbling I will write all about this 'When Kafaka met Fawlty' period of employment, for now I will just say that it involved mass media attention, huge public clamour, direct highest Government intervention, and me having to spend weekends in Watford to stop it

Midnight in the Hoegaarden of good and evil
This was written whilst trying to cope with the above nightmare by spending elongated periods  in highly insalubrious late night drinking holes consuming very heady wheat beer as a coping strategy.
You already know it's a riff-pun on this right?

Village Camden where even the dregs pass you by
I have alas a well informed observers view of the bleak creatures of the late night who stagger and stumble, swagger and mumble through the quaff troughs of my native town.

Kathy Burke-ian woman laughing heartily at the man chav blokes story and his wild gesticulating with cries of 'so I fucked the geezer over like'
A Prosciutto thin slice of salty red meat life in late night Camden. The Kathy Burke reference was to her character  Linda Hughes and that Kathy herself is a local girl.

Story of a group of human beings who with no prior knowledge or experience came(led) together
This was in regards to the hard pressed people I was working with on the above nightmare job. I am pretty sure I meant to leave it at 'came together' and that Camel was me trying to shoe horn (hoof, toe) in a 'the straw that broke the camels back' or 'having the hump' or some such.

Club Eventually
I think this was a nickname we gave to ourselves as our only crumb of consolation was that the whole situation would end 'eventually'

'I don't know what to ask you and you don't know what to say'
Just a fantastic line I heard the unique, brilliant and much larger than life Marcus Massey who was also working on the nightmare job, say to an utterly flummoxed customer

Notebook 00 Pg 10 Part 5

Notebook 00 Pg 10 Part 4

Notebook 00 Pg 10 Part 3

Notebook 00 Pg 10 Part 2

Notebook 00 Pg 10 Part 1

Notebook 16 Pg 135

So many words so little sense

Here is an audio reading and commentary of the above pages 

Notebook 23 Pg 05

Thought I would try something a bit different

Notebook 20 Pg 77

notes

• Inertia Man and Hermit Boy
• Sub quarks are Dom memes
• Have a drink it makes you different
• Your mind is the modem for accessing the web of life

commentary

Inertia Man and Hermit Boy

I remember having a discussion with friends to try and come up with un-super heroes and these two came out as our un-dynamic duo.


Sub quarks are Dom memes
Obviously here I have simply blended sexuality, Quantum physics and theories of the evolutionary transmission of cultural ideas.  As you do.

The following (taken from Wiki) may be of interest to both my regular readers as to the etymology of quarks as quoted by the Physicist Murray Gell Mann

"In 1963, when I assigned the name "quark" to the fundamental constituents of the nucleon, I had the sound first, without the spelling, which could have been "kwork". Then, in one of my occasional perusals of Finnegans Wake, by James Joyce, I came across the word "quark" in the phrase "Three quarks for Muster Mark". Since "quark" (meaning, for one thing, the cry of the gull) was clearly intended to rhyme with "Mark", as well as "bark" and other such words, I had to find an excuse to pronounce it as "kwork". But the book represents the dream of a publican named Humphrey Chimpden Earwicker. Words in the text are typically drawn from several sources at once, like the "portmanteau" words in "Through the Looking-Glass". From time to time, phrases occur in the book that are partially determined by calls for drinks at the bar. I argued, therefore, that perhaps one of the multiple sources of the cry "Three quarks for Muster Mark" might be "Three quarts for Mister Mark", in which case the pronunciation "kwork" would not be totally unjustified. In any case, the number three fitted perfectly the way quarks occur in nature."

I have always found it very curious that Finnegans Wake, very probably the very first truly post-modern book should be so entangled with the Quantum world. Both have been responsible for showing that we do not live in a binary Universe; both prove our choices are far more than  yes/no, either/or and that there are many ways of looking at something, that there exists no one definitive answer only stronger or weaker degrees of probability. 
They both demolish certainty which appears to be something that so many of the world's ills are all about: 'There IS a God, There IS NOT a god. This IS the best way. Abortion IS wrong.
Certainty is certainly something most people are petrified of loosing.

Have a drink it makes you different
As a man with a long and complex relationship with alcohol (we split up for good a whilst ago  moderately amicably considering) I do think this provides a key to how it works, it does indeed change your mind-frame.

Your mind is the modem for accessing the web of life
Sometimes, not too often, but sometimes, I quite like my metaphors. This is one of them. Alas most modems are now located inside computers so less and less people know what one is.  In'it always the way?

Notebook 04 Pg 10

notes

• "He was thirteen of the most interesting men I ever met" 
• illegible scribble  since pantyhose
• Make the impossible seem possible = politics
• Human license
• Gays, guns and God
• All hat and no cattle
• 'Fanny patting' = photo opportunities with influential people

commentary

"He was thirteen of the most interesting men I ever met"  
This was said about Lyndon Johnson and makes for a brilliant back-handed compliment.

illegible scribble  since pantyhose
I have tried to decipher the illegible scribble bit alas to no avail, so I'm afraid we shall never know what it was that was whatever it was since pantyhose.

Make the impossible seem possible = politics
A pragmatists view.

Human license
I think this was written whilst under one of my more despairing clouds. I still think it may have merit and that humans should have to earn the right to call themselves such, I can think of no system other then outdated hereditary monarchy where one gets automatic privileges simply on account of being born. I guess it is just a fairly extreme form of with rights come responsibilities. Or maybe I am moving from a young man sowing wild oats to an old man growing sage.

Gays, guns and God
I think this was the first time I had heard about the three G's and how opinions and beliefs about them play such a  pivotal American  politics.

All hat and no cattle
Back to Lyndon Johnson only this was a quote he would use about other people, I think the English equivalent would be 'they talk a good game'.

'Fanny patting' = photo opportunities with influential people
This was another of Lyndon Johnson's phrase, obviously fanny is relating to the American use of the word not the British, though judging by the sheer shameless obsequiousness on display at these events I'm not so sure.

Notebook 09 Pg 75

notes

• Metis - Cunning intelligence
• U-lixes  u-lixez
• Penny Spenda
• Stephen + Milly
• Et ignotas animum dimittit in artes
• Fair go for the workers
• Mindless free markets
• Codex Humanicha
• Jimminy Beckett

commentary

Metis - Cunning intelligence
Poor old, wholly overlooked  Metis.  Written completely out of myth-tory she was Zeus's chief counsellor, the one who advised him on how to defeat the Titans. Jealous of her power he rewarded her by swallowing her whole. Nice.

U-lixes  u-lixez
I am a rogue and peasant knave. I remember with shame that this was an idea I had for modernising the Iliad and thus the name Ulysses. What was I thinking?

Penny Spenda
I am guessing this was due to be an updated rendering of Penelope. The original was so, so much better!


Stephen + Milly
For reasons best known (and now entirely forgotten) I have jotted the names of the two children of Leopold Bloom the hero of James Joyce's Ulysses.

Et ignotas animum dimittit in artes
Obviously when I wrote this I was on a complete James Joyce fest as this is the epigraph to his book 'Portrait of the artist as a young man'. The quote is originally from Ovid's Metamorphoses and translates as "And he sets his mind to unknown arts" (in Ovid the line it continues) "and changes the laws of nature."

Fair go for the workers
An Australian expression which I once heard Clive James use as being the best summation of his own politics and thought it a fair explanation of my own.

Mindless free markets
As above, this was his expression for why unfettered Capitalism does not work as the market itself  has no sense of rationality, justice or compassion.

Codex Humanicha
Here I am with no sense of shame or modesty idly jotting down names for what my works will be titled in the future.

Jimminy Beckett
I remember that here I combined him  with him  to create the idea of Disney meeting disillusion.
Jimminy went on to author the play Waiting for Pluto. By the way the original character in the Pinocchio books got unexpectedly crushed and killed by a mallet in the first chapter, which is very Beckett.

Notebook 14 Pg 122

Notes

• "Very confusing fact situation" Kosovo, Sandyberger
• "Accidental deployment of forces"
• When you talk of the people or the masses or the community you are talking about me
• That's evolvulution
• No disinterested outsider ever personally gives you valediction of your worth
• Ontological guerrillas Wilson & Pratchett
• Biggin Hill helicopters

commentary


"Very confusing fact situation"
I believe this was a phrase I heard used by Sandy Berger in an interview he gave  relating to his time as United States Security Advisor to Bill Clinton during the Kosovo conflict. It does seem to be bit of a weasel phrase that could very well be a euphemism for lying-lying-pants-on-fireing. 

"Accidental deployment of forces"
Another phrase from the same interview. Sandy Berger was later convicted of stealing classified documents relating to 9/11 from the National Archives. He smuggled them out by stuffing them down his pants which, had they been on fire would have destroyed the evidence.

When you talk of the people or the masses or the community you are talking about me
Just pointing out that 'people' mostly talk about 'the people' or 'the community' as if it were a single entity with one point of view, and not the amorphous, contradictory ball of opinions we all know it to be because we are it.

That's evolvulution
When evoution meets revolution you get this one simple to make broad brush neologism that manages to define nothing.

No disinterested outsider ever personally gives you valediction of your worth
A phrase specificaly designed to give you mild anxiety and confusion. 
Please don't bother trying to figure it out, I can't and I wrote it.

Ontological guerillas - Wilson & Pratchett
This is what I want to be when I am a grown up like Sir Terry and Uncle Bob
Here is a tool favoured by ontological guerillas

Warning! Any jokes using the word 'Cannon' will result in your exile from this site

Biggin Hill helicopters
They do indeed have helicopters at Biggin Hill, why I felt it necessary to remark upon this remains a mystery. Though I do recall that it is mentioned in the De Vinci code so who knows..?   

Notebook 46 Pg 10

notes

• Arch reader, Pro reader, 'reader, life reader
• Bullet ants - Elgar
• Harpe Eagle
• Wandering Spider  18 x more black widow , exceptionally aggresive 1,000 per year Brazil
• Old as Adams tree and as new as a new cut tooth
• Melissa cork factory 
• Onion Meat 
• Free fleas for all
• Trickpissers will be pairsecluded

commentary

Arch reader, Pro reader, 'reader, life reader
Other than 'this is something about reading' I have no idea what I was gabbling on about

Bullet ants - Elgar
Okay notes about the mean little Bullet ant I can understand, notes about the Elgar the great composer I can understand.  I have wracked and near ruined my brain trying to figure out what in heavens name could have made me write about the two of them in one note

Harpy Eagle
Guess this is this guy. Starting to think I was probably watching a natural history programme.

Wandering Spider.  18 x more Black widow, exceptionally aggressive. 1,000 per year Brazil.
See above - probably something with a title along the lines of 'Worlds most dangerous things that you are not going to encounter sitting on your arse watching this programme'

Old as Adams tree and as new as a new cut tooth
This is a quote from the great Orson Welles in his amazingly brilliant (unfortunately flawed by a familiar fatal famish of finance) film F for Fake - A glorious sample:

 


Melissa cork factory
I'm sure I know no one called Melissa and I know I have never been nor wanted to go to a cork factory. Who ever you may be woman from the wine bottle sealing / pin board material manufacturing plant I wish you luck

Onion meat  
The ultimate in pared down back to basic recipes? Actually probably some kind of skin/layers stripping away metaphor 

Free fleas for all
Sounds like a vote winner
  
Trickpissers will be pairsecluded
For once not my own brand of nonsense but a line for the monumental Finnegans Wake which I have been reading for over a decade and know that I will die not having unraveled all its myriad of mindmulching mysteries. Here's a rare clip of Jim reading a bit out loud: